I have been attempted to re-find the balance in my life, a task that seems so exuberantly daunting at the present moment. Okay, I should just come clean and confess... it has been daunting for the past three months! Every time I think I have a spare moment to catch up with my mind, my brain teases me and steps on the gas.
I am afraid of burning out. I am afraid that one day I won't be giddy and happy on a wedding day. I am afraid that I will feel uninspired when I photograph on a beautifully, amazing day. I don't ever want to feel like I have to get through a session or the day. But overworking yourself can very well lead straight to that. Thus, I must remember to, on occasion, open my eyes wider and look around. I need to stay focused but still have fun.
I am a photographer after all. I photograph things, be it people, events - real life. I have not picked up a camera in the past three months just for fun. Everything has been about business. Otherwise, that Nikon stays locked up. It's heavy... I don't want to unpack it only to pack it back up... I don't feel like it...
Gahhh!!! Can you believe what I have allowed myself to become?! I can't. Oh internet, feel free to slap me slowly back into place. Okay, so maybe you don't have to - I hope not. I promise to myself to get back on track; to get back to living and breathing business but because it is fun. Not because I must meet a deadline or must capture the perfect shot. Rather, because it's my job and I love it :)
There are some fun things I have planned... I can't wait to share with you! In the meantime, I'll leave you with some photos of life. As it happens... on a random day, I photographed.
{Lupita and myself. 07.25.2011}
On a side note, but a very important one at that, I want to send a giant Happy Birthday wish to a very dear best friend... Although our paths have changed and we no longer are each other's bests, I miss you very much and hope you had an amazing day!!! You, my friend, are on the track to reap the blessings that the Lord has in store for you. Grasp them, grasp them all. In life we only get one chance to jump head first into the opportunities laid out before us. It is our innate responsibility to accept them with open arms.
So in light of taking my own advice, I open my arms and accept all the great people and things currently in and headed my way!!! I have found a new perspective in my life and I feel so blessed. If you see me smiling from ear to ear, well what can I say other than Thank you Jesus!
Evening my friends :).